Doubt, Fear and Love!
When confusion and fear came rushing in, I wasn’t sure what was happening. I held tightly to my Bible even though deep down I was questioning the very existence of God, the very God who delivered me from SO SO much over the past 6 years. (Hello, my name is Lindsay and I am an Israelite)
It was crazy and the reason why I didn’t blog. I had nothing to share with you, I was busy holding onto my faith like it was going to slip out of my very hands.
It sounds dramatic, but to be honest, it kinda WAS, it was very scary. The problem was I wasn’t sure what was going on, I just felt confused and scared. I started to see that fear was overtaking me and I couldn’t reconcile why.
Then, I realized it was just plain old fashion doubt and unbelief!
Pretty simple yet pretty powerful!
When the doubt and unbelief started to sneak in, it eroded my first line of defense, FAITH and my first line of offense, the Sword of the Spirit, which is the very Word of God!
When you doubt, when you put down your shield of faith, like I did, you try to stab around with your sword (the Word of God), but you doubt God is good or God is for you or that God is even real so you doubt His Word is true therefore how could it really help you.
The fear that God wasn’t real led to me to think I had to take control of my life. (which is the lie)
But here is what I learned happens to us when we entertain fear, we also entertain the following:
Insecurity (who is going to help me?)
Inadequacy (I am going to mess this up)
Inferiority (I am not good enough to receive this blessing)
Timidity (I can’t stand up for what I believe)
Worry and Anxiety (what IF _______________)
Fear of Authority (what if what they are telling me is wrong)
Phobias (of the future, I better secure my future because no one else will)
Nervousness (thinking bad things are going to happen)
Abandonment (no one will remember me)
These things we invite in when we entertain FEAR!
My fear came from my doubt and unbelief that God IS REAL, IN CONTROL and IN LOVE WITH ME!
It all stemmed from there.
So what do we do? How do we cast fear out?
The Bible is clear, Perfect Love, CASTS OUT FEAR. 1 John 4:8
The Bible says:
God IS Love (1 John 4:8)
He is Perfect (Matthew 5:8)
He IS Perfect Love, when we can get past the lies and false feelings and receive His LOVE truly, we begin to believe that we are the apple of His eye Zechariah 2:8, that His thoughts about us (YOU) out number the very sand of the sea (Psalm 139: 17-18) (which is absurd, do you know how much sand there is?) that’s when we can tell fear to take a hike and instead stand on the TRUTH of God’s Word. He loves US! Love that we cannot comprehend on earth, we can’t even imagine the kind of Love He has for us.
Let’s ask Him! Let’s ask Him about His love for us.
I challenge you to wake up tomorrow (and every morning), and ask Him how He loves you!
Watch and Listen, He is with you and He will show you if you ask!
Lord God, you are God and we are not. Please Lord forgive us for our unbelief, restore in us a faith that comes from You, as You Jesus are the author and perfector of our faith. Lord, you say if we lack wisdom, to come to You and You will give it to us without measure, so Lord, we come to You and ask for your wisdom on what is holding us back from receiving Your love, show us, tells us, bring it to our hearts and minds, let us repent, let us give you our fear. We bind ourselves to You Jesus and Your Word which is living and active. We loose all that was stolen from us in this fight for our faith, restore in us now Lord all that we have been missing in You.
We choose to receive from You now absolute perfect Love, all that You are and all that You want to be in and through us!
In Jesus mighty name, we Pray and Believe that you are who you say you are, Perfect Love that LOVES a flawed person like me, all because of Jesus, He made a way for me to You and I am grateful!
Thank you Lord! In your name Jesus, we pray!
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