What is it that we are afraid of?
15 years ago I thought something was really wrong with me, so I drank lots of vodka to avoid the pain and the deeper issues which were screaming “you can’t handle the truth.”
Quite the opposite was true, I needed to know the Truth, but see the enemy doesn’t want that to happen and those ‘mean thoughts’ in our head, they are always from the enemy of God and the enemy of our very souls. Thankfully He doesn’t win.
In God’s goodness He showed me that nothing was really wrong with me, well except that I needed ultimate forgiveness which was accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior, because I was spiritually dead.
After that was all taken care of, it was good to know finally, the “issue” that I thought was too big for anyone to fix, was actually just fear.
Honestly it was a relief to know it could at least be identified, fear. Identifying things can be a huge part of the solution. I use to fear everything. It not only controlled my life, it was all I knew, it was the filter in which I saw parts of life. I am sure some of you can relate.
As I grew to know, love and understand God’s love for me, the fear didn’t go away but it did subside.
The Bible says
“There is no fear in love; but perfect love (God’s LOVE) casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love”. 1 John 4:18 NASB
And it was true, as I grew to receive God’s love for me more and more, the fear would dissipate.
Lately, God has been so gentle and kind to reveal that fear can come at us with different faces. I am not sure how else to say it. The fear wasn’t this one big thing, it was a bunch of little things. And when I say little, I don’t mean little as in they felt little, quite the opposite they felt unbearable. But what I am seeing is that God is breaking it down for me, to deal more directly with the actual lie that creates the fear. Then to recognize it as fear and cast it down.
2 Corinthians 10:5 King James Version (KJV)
5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
To give you an example; the latest one God has brought my attention is the “fear of messing up His plan” or the “ fear of making the wrong choice” or the “fear of not doing what He says”
Well if you read these you start to see that they all kind of root back to the same or a similar theme.
What God revealed to me today was that I “TRY” (since control is actually an illusion) to control things because I fear if I don’t, all will fall apart. I fear that making the wrong decision or choice could totally ruin my entire life.
WOW, I am giving myself a lot of credit here, actually a lot of control here and as we discussed back a few weeks ago, control is rooted in fear.
I think part of the trick with fear is that we battle it from this one big thing instead of asking ourselves, “WHAT IS IT that I am afraid of?” If we stay confused on what we are actually afraid of, it makes it harder to deal with and that is what the enemy of God wants, us to just live with the fear.
Plus The Lord did NOT give us a spirit of fear. It is a spirit. The Bible says so in 2 Timothy 1:7.
He gave us power, love and a sound mind.
Let’s dwell on this whenever fear presents itself, be sure to pay attention to what you are thinking about and why, it will show you a lot about what the enemy may want you to believe, that JUST isn’t true.