Freedom from all the YUCK!

Love leads to freedom!

God is love and where the Spirit of the Lord (God) is, there is freedom.

The Bible says it like this “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom”  in 2 Corthin. 3:17 (NIV)

The NASB version uses the word liberty! “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.” 2 Corthin. 3:17 (NASB)

Que Chris Tomlin

We know where the Spirit of the Lord is
Where the Spirit of the Lord is
There is liberty
We know living in your freedom
living in your freedom, see your glory
We know where the Spirit of the Lord is
Where the Spirit of the Lord is
There is liberty

“Listen Here to Song”

The truth is, I thought I wrote a bunch on love and it was time to move to another subject I am beyond passionate about which is FREEDOM in CHRIST. But it all ended up coming back to Love, Himself!

Freedom = Getting free of all the yuck in our souls, the lies, the fear, the guilt, the shame, the unforgivness, the bitterness, the rejection, the abandonment, the misplaced identity, all of it, all of the yucky stuff will just hold you down, it will confuse you and it will keep you chained for life and the sad part is, you will never know the difference.

If you don’t know the truth, how will you know the lie?

It’s not exactly easy, you may need 17 boxes of Kleenex and a determination to tell the enemy to go back to hell where he and his lies came from in the first place and possibly on a daily basis. As scripture refers to it in 2 Corthin10:5 where it says “We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ because you are a daughter or son of the LIVING GOD and you were born for FREEDOM. (Lindsay’s Version)

Galatians 5:1 Jesus came to set YOU free!

John 8:32 says “YOU shall know the truth and the truth will set YOU free.”

Jesus is the Word, the Truth and the Life and He came to bring the Word, the Truth and Life to set YOU free! (John 14:5)

Let me say that again, JESUS

The answer is still JUST JESUS and the answer will always be just Jesus, but sometimes we need a little help unwrapping the grave clothes (as Mark Batterson refers to it) because we are no longer dead in our sins, but we are ALIVE in JESUS CHRIST! The thing is we can carry some of those old grave clothes around with us! Grave Clothes like fear, guilt, shame, rejection, unworthiness and a host of others. Grave Clothes that will not necessarily send us to hell, but will hinder us and our walk if don’t “throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us” as said in Hebrews 12:1

But the enemy doesn’t want you to know there is any other way but to slug around with your grave clothes hanging off you, like toilette paper from the bathroom hanging onto your shoe.

Example of Grave Clothes…..

I recently thought to myself  “Why am I 37 and single when I have a desire to be married, what is wrong with me?” I wondered. It must be complicated, I thought. There must be something extremely wrong with me. WHAT IS IT GOD? I begged and begged to know. He was kind to show me the unworthiness lie which I believed for a longgggggg time (too long to even think about) see here for more on the lie of unworthiness, but I knew there was more. Lord what is it?

He kept showing me this rejection theme, eekkkk, it was ugly to see, it made me want to turn my head like in a scary movie as I realized I rejected the desire to love for fear of not being loved in return. Ohhhhh myyyyy wordddddd, it’s so simple but so strangely profound. How could a seemingly strong, Godly, competent women be hiding like this?

Well I was!

And still might from time to time if I don’t take every thought captive that tries to sneak into my head!

I will find freedom if I have to KICK and SCREAM as the enemy whispers in my ear “you are selfish Lindsay, always thinking about yourself.”  But good thing I know the enemy is a liar, and an evil accuser of the brethren (or sisterian in my case) so I just look up at Jesus, step on the enemies head and walk on!

As Christine Caine recently said, “We have a bunch of Christians running around wanting to change the world but not wanting to change themselves”


As you LOVE yourself! Interesting!

Jesus came to set us free, so if you are in bondage, it is time to stop what you are doing, get down on your knees and ask your PERFECT Heavenly Father for the wisdom and sit at His feet until He shows you what He wants to show you. I don’t have a clue what it is for you! Rejection like me? Fear of abandonment? Unworthiness? Unforgivness from 20 years ago? Misplaced Identity? It could be any of these or a host of others.

It takes time sometimes, that is why the Bible says to: “not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect” Romans 12:2 NASB)

In all things we need to “seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33

So pray and ask the Lord if there is anything holding you back from the freedom He died to bring you?

Click Here to see the prayers on this blog for releasing things like fear, rejection, unforgivness and bitterness.

Also see this article on the health benefit to forgiving and releasing bitterness from the Mayo Clinic!

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The More on LOVE!

Ok, I know this isn’t what you thought I was going to say and to be honest I didn’t know what I was going to say until I sat down with the Lord last night…….

I did know God wanted me to step out of my fear “of acting weird” brought on partly by my deep insecurity…. I knew because scripture is clear ”For God hath {has} not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7 KJV

So that was clear, but I didn’t know exactly where we were going (aka the very name of my blog comes rushing back to hit me upside the head) Put the Pencil Down Lindsay, don’t assume what I am doing – I can just hear God saying….

Sometimes (actually often) I get these big ideas on where God may be headed, I am not positive He switches it up a bit to see if I will follow Him, but it would be interesting to see if I would listen and follow. Or if I would just mosey on in the direction I THOUGHT He was taking me and miss the very point of what He might be trying to teach me. Am I alone here?

I knew God wanted me to date, I just didn’t know it was Him that He wanted me to date.

This isn’t actually new. I use to have Jesus dates all the time when I lived in Atlanta and that is actually where I experienced so much healing of my broken wounded soul. He taught me so much about what love really was, what receiving love really looked like. It healed MANY deep deep things within me.

He is actually Love! 1 John 4:8 HA who better to teach us?

I KNOW I KNOW! All of you singles are like “Lindsay PLEASE”

{I can hear you!}

But I am not trying to be super holy here, I am being super honest!

And just to show you that I am not crazy or alone in this, read this amazing story….CLICK HERE you can just hit the back arrow when you are done! Cuz we aren’t done!


Your back, OK, let’s continue..

When I first got to LA I wasn’t all the way prepared for the transition and I gripped firmly onto my life and was scared to let go.

I then had a dear mentor tell me that my extreme struggle and fear may have come from the fact that I wasn’t really prepared for what a move like this could be like spiritually speaking. She said “Lindsay I know you had a wonderful, supportive community in Atlanta and I think you found a lot of your security in them. When you moved out here you thought your security was in your community so you ran around this city for months looking for that community and you forgot that your security was ALWAYS in God and as soon as you put Him first again your community and everything else will flow from there”

OH MY WORD. Girlfriend was right on! I knew it the moment she said it! What she said hit me like a ton of bricks.

In a good way!

As God, my mentor and I have been talking more and more about dating outside of Him, He reminded me that He is perfect love and I need to come to Him and He will show me so that I can surely recognize it when that time comes.

Here is the thing, I just don’t bare my soul across the internet because it’s fun, writing actually heals my soul and my  prayer is that reading it actually heals yours.

Let’s go on this journey together, becoming students of Love Himself!!! So much more to talk about in regards to love. It will be fun! I have no doubt!

Was it really good old fashion unworthiness?

Was it that simple?

All these years?

I wanted to stand up on the airplane and yell “the DEVIL is a LIAR” when the reality popped into my head.

I love my life and I actually had to get really real with the Almighty in Heaven and ask myself, “do I really want to get married or am I ok and content being single?”

The answer after much deep reflection, prayer and tears was YES, YES I do. Even though I know it is not rainbows and puppy dogs 24-7 the answer is still YES, I do desire marriage. But not in a desperate way, I have been desperate for “love” before and that never ends up well. This time, it started with a question, a question that I had to settle in myself, reach into the deep of deep and ask myself. Do I REALLY desire marriage?

The answer was YES.

The question then remained, what keeps holding me back from entering in? To even dating let’s say?

Ever sense I met Jesus 6 1/2 years ago I was “the girl” that often said “I trust Jesus SO much that I believe He can bring my husband to my front door, I mean He created the universe.”

Which I do believe He could, I mean He is God, but in every other area of faith He asks us to “step out of the boat,” why did I think in this instance I could sit on my couch and wait for my dude to show up?

The truth is, the Lord recently revealed to me that I indeed may have unintentionally used that “strong faith” as a cover up, to protect myself.

I have passed up many opportunities in my life to “enter in” and it was out of FEAR.  But then I had to walk through many of my fears (and it was not a cake walk to say the least).  I thought I had overcome, I thought I was ready and open to dating.

But then I found myself being really weird in front of guys.

If they were cute (in my eyes) I was weird, if I didn’t find them attractive, I was weird. It was all very weird.

I needed and wanted to get to the bottom of this.

So, I prayed, I cried, I asked the One who created me, “Lord, what is it, dig it out even if it hurts, I know there is something off here”

As I sat on the plane over a month ago, my sanctuary in the sky I realized, wait.

I feel completely unworthy of a good marriage, or a husband I am attracted too.


Could this whole mess be good (I say that with sarcasm) old fashion unworthiness?


It’s that simple?

The Bible says “there is nothing new under the sun” Ecclesiastes 1:9

When I looked up the word worthy in the dictionary it said “having good enough qualities to be considered important”


WHO died for ME!

The Spirit of the Living, God lives in me, because of Jesus.

How dare the liar, the devil, the Father of lies, lie to me all these years.

God is working on me and digging out some things that are holding me back from just being Lindsay and not thinking so hard about the rest. I plan to share this journey with you, slightly awkward, but that is usually how I blog (almost too honest for comfort)

More to come on Lindsay “stepping over her fears and in “it” with Jesus” It will for sure be a journey! But this time, I know it is good and I have to trust God with ALL of my heart.

One step at a time! It’s all anyone of us can really do! Holding His hand walking with Him step by step! Putting our ear so close to Him, keeping our eyes on Jesus (The Word made flesh), in the Word of God and leaving all else out of it.

God is our Creator, the rest, the rest of this world was created by Him. He is the final authority in all things! We get the choice to believe that or not.

As I was preparing to post this a friend suggested I share some of the ways I have had to fight this unworthiness in my life, although the fight is still raging, the best “advice” I can provide is to first understand who you are in Christ. Your new identity in Him as a believer. I would start here!

Not sure what I mean by believer, read here!

See you next time as we journey together through the LIES that hold us down!

No More, Child of the Living God! No more!

Prayers for Freedom Click Here

Let’s talk about LOVE

I have been talking so much about fear lately it is time to talk about what sends fear screaming out the door. love!

The Bible says “Perfect LOVE casts out all fear” 1 John 4:18

Amen to that.

I believe with all my heart that love, the love of the Perfect Father in Heaven is what changes people. It changed me and it also changed my friend.

And the cool thing is, He offers it to everyone. Every.Single.Person who chooses to receive His love, through His Son Jesus Christ.

All are adopted into His family, when we choose to see our sin for what it is, sin, and then ask for forgiveness, we are saved. We are saved, covered and changed, by Jesus Christ, the son of the living God and then grafted into His family as sons and daughters of yes, the living God. No matter the sin or the past, you (who choose to believe) are in right relationship with God the Father because of King Jesus!

It’s called GRACE……


(for more on this click here)

now for the LOVE story! 

A dear dear friend (sister actually) you know a sister friend of mine -always points back to a time when her and I were exploring the things of God and ended up in this random upstairs apartment in the middle of Midtown Atlanta. We were there to hear this women speak who ran an orphanage in India. We were sitting on hard floors for hours because her way of talking about God, Jesus and Holy Spirit were so new to my friend and I we could have stayed all night to listen.  We were captivated!

Her stories of straight up miracles were “eyes wide open, mouth on the floor” type of miracles.

As we left and walked down stairs, I will never forget my friend turning to me and saying “I can’t believe God adopts us into His family.”

I think I was still thinking about the miracles and how crazy but amazing they were, but I didn’t really pick up on what she picked up on.

See my friend had lost her mother when she was just 6 years old and when she heard the women speak on Ephesians 1:5

“God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure.” NLT

……it changed something in her.

Still today, actually just last night she said the very same thing and has for years now. “I am just so thankful for God’s love for me, I just can’t thank Him enough for being my Father and loving me so much!”

I would say that my friend has a deep and profound revelation of the Father’s love for her and she would probably tell you that it is indeed what shifted something big in her heart and in her mind and therefore in her life.

The LOVE of Father God.

She actually lost her earthly father 2 ½ years ago just 6 months before her wedding, but we both knew that her Heavenly Father was the One who was walking before her down the aisle to meet her husband, whom will actually be a father himself in just a few short days. A little boy they will be having, who may be a father himself one day. But more important than that, we pray that little Noah will have the same profound revelation of the Father’s love that His mamma does.

Because Love, perfect unconditional love that all humans need, is actually God Himself. The Bible speaks so clearly that God IS Love. Just stop and think about that. God is love. God created us, He can’t help but love us and He created the need in every human heart for love, some find love on earth and that is a gift from God. The things is God created every.single.human to need and thrive in love. And since He created the universe and every person on earth, He created us all to need what He is. Which is LOVE.

I just want to scream and shout, THAT IS SO COOL!

If you want to ask to be in the family of God, here is a short guide for what to pray to receive Jesus Christ as a covering for your sins and to be reconciled back to Father God in right relationship. He is waiting for you to ASK!

Jesus, I need you. I need your life and your love. I believe you are the Son of God. I believe that your death on the cross was for me– to rescue me from sin and death and to restore me to the Father in Heaven. I choose right now to surrender my life to you. I turn from my sin and my self-determination, and I give my life to you. Thank you for loving me and forgiving me. Come and take your rightful place in my heart and in my life. Be my Savior and my Lord. Live in me; live through me. I am yours

no part, not.any.thing, no thing

James 1: 2-3 Consider it all JOY when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance (the bearings of evil and suffering with tranquil mind) And let endurance result (to work) that you may be perfect and complete (perfectly sound {in body} entire, whole) lacking nothing (no part, not.any.thing, no thing)..

When I came across this verse the other night, in the S T R A N G E S T way ever, I read the word “nothing”, and thought, “lack NOTHING?”  I wonder what NOTHING really means?

I ran to get my Key Word Study Bible that my brilliant Bible Teaching friend Sarah told me to buy. With this handy little Bible you can look up the Greek and Hebrew meaning of a word, to see what the original language might have been saying. 

I was curious about the word, NOTHING. I thought, it must mean something in the original language. I mean nothing is so final, its so absolute. It couldn’t possibly mean nothing. 

Could it?

So I ran around this sweet little cottage I live in searching for that specific Bible, after searching for it, saying a quick, “Lord help me find that Bible” prayer, I realized it was in my car, so I zipped out and got it. 

As I opened up to James, I dug into a few other words in the Greek, such as the word endurance (as it is used at the beginning of the verse) and it said to mean (the bearings of evil and suffering with a tranquil mind). YES PLEASE.. I would love to have a tranquil mind while fighting these evil lies that try to creep into my brain. I love that definition…

But I was still curious about the word “nothing” there was no little number beside it, which indicates that there is a different or deeper meaning in the Greek dictionary. I was kind of disappointed, I was excited to see what nothing really meant. 

So I resorted to the good ole Merriam- Webster (online version of course) and it said


–no part

–not any thing

–no thing

So what I am reading is if I endure my trials and my suffering, it will work to make me complete, whole, lacking NOTHING (no part, not any thing, no thing.)

That’s kind of awesome!!!!! It really produces HOPE, huh? Hope that if we wait well in our trials, there is this ‘lacking nothing’ that we will get too. 

Then the next verse says “but if any of you lacks wisdom let him ask God who gives to all men generously and without reproach and it will be given to him”

(so while we wait, we can ask wisdom from God).

y’all, He created the universe and your inner most being, He is saying we can come to Him and ask for wisdom. 

I don’t know about you, but this is good news for me. As I am in this new chapter of life and just about everything seems pretty uncertain, I have the confidence that during this time of trial and testing (which has been kinda hard) I know that He is working things out so that I will lack NOTHING. no part, not any thing, no thing. AND while I wait and maybe do lack a few things, I can go to the One who created everything and ask for wisdom (in ANYTHING). Sounds like a good deal to me!