God’s precious thoughts about YOU!

“How precious also are God’s thoughts of YOU, how great are the sum of them. If you should count them, they are more in number than the sands by the sea.” Psalm 139: 17-18

I read that this morning, and instead of just skipping by it, I sat and read it over and over again!

Insert your name; try again:

“How precious also are God’s thoughts of YOU __________, how great are the sum of them. If you should count them ___________, they are more in number than the sands by the sea.” Psalm 139: 17-18

How precious are God’s thoughts of ME? When I think of how I use the word precious I think of the most adorable, heart warming things like babies or little old people in love or a really cute dress (just being honest here!)…something that usually melts my heart and makes me fall in love!

How precious are the thoughts of God (Creator of the Universe) towards me? Towards you?

Have you ever REALLY thought about it?

I know a lot of us have read this before; we have seen it quoted here, there and everywhere, but STOP and think about it just for a few moments.

GOD has precious thoughts about you and me that outnumber the sands by the sea.  WHOA

Think for a moment when or if you have been to the beach, just the nearest beach to you. Sand is EVERYWHERE as we try to knock it off our shoes, clean it out of our toes and even our bathing suit bottoms once we get home. It’s everywhere! You can’t seem to escape it.

That’s a LOT of sand and it honestly makes me tear up when I think about how much an ALL KNOWING God who created me, thinks about me! AND, His thoughts about me (and YOU) are precious.

No one else will ever think about me that much, not a husband, not a child, not even my most precious adoring grandmothers (who I think probably adore me more than anyone).  None of them will think about me as much as God, my perfect Heavenly Father, thinks about me.

I just sit here and think, Lord, I am so overwhelmed at this thought, and I am so sorry that my thoughts are all over the place, usually wondering if I can even TRUST YOU.  Who am I kidding?  Who would I rather trust than someone who thinks about me as much as You do?

AND, He made us; He knew we would be just like we are,  He knew I would be disorganized, completely unstructured and somewhat of a mess. These are things that I used to truly hate about myself.  I would often hear in my head, “Lindsay, no one is going to marry you; you are such a disaster.”

BUT, the devil is a LIAR because God knew what He was doing, AND He thinks it’s precious!

He has recently shown me that being disorganized, unstructured and a bit of a mess is not only OK, it is beautiful. It makes me abstract, creative and fun! I am 36 and just started to accept my “faults” recently, because I have realized that it is NOT a surprise to my Heavenly Father that I am like this, not near as much of a surprise as it will be to my future husband! 😉

Oh Lord, please forgive me, forgive me for my unbelief.  I repent Lord from the lies I let into my mind that you are not to be trusted, that you don’t care, that you are not right here beside me, that you are not listening, that you don’t hear my cries. Forgive me for not coming to you first, the One who loves me more than anything or anyone for that matter. YOU Lord, the One who sent His son to DIE a horrible gruesome death for me, OF COURSE YOU LOVE ME, and I love you.  I pray all of this in Your Precious name Jesus!




He will give you rest

The Bible says “28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Today was heavy for me, from the news about Rick and Kay Warren, to a dear sister in the hospital right now fighting for her life, to a movement being started because there are so many enslaved in our world. The trafficking that went on this past weekend right outside my house, to those far and wide who don’t know the LOVE and saving grace of Jesus Christ and then those in my own circle of influence who don’t know Him either.

My heart was burdened.

I know God has called me to help make Jesus’ name famous through writing. It is a dream honestly, but today, I felt 100% helpless! Or 100% unhelpful maybe I should say!

I felt paralyzed by all the pain, all there is to do. I felt like what I do isn’t enough!

I give, I pray, I ask God: “Do you want me to move across the world or should I stay and help in my own neighborhood.”

I know He wants me to write, and as I write that very phrase, I think to myself “what good is that doing Lindsay”

Now I realize, the devil is a LIAR and I was listening!  I mean two blogs ago I was writing on how it is so important to stay close to Him and let Him show us. But today, I felt as though I needed to figure it out, I needed to carry the weight of all of these things too.

THEN: I got a text message from a friend who has recently started her walk back towards God, with a new kick in her step, she was encouraged, I could tell! It was the sweetness of God, welcoming His baby girl back home! A perfect Father just loving on His daughter whom had returned home!

Oh, my heart! God is so kind I suddenly remembered.

The Bible says The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Why do I think I have to save them?

At church on Sunday we just talked about when Jesus’s friend Lazarus died and the Bible says in John 11:35 “Jesus wept”

I am comforted by the fact that no matter what happens in all these situations above, Jesus, the Son of God (who is God) cries with us, cries with the ones who cry, the Bible says He is our comforter!

I started to write this blog during my lunch break, as I wrote out the scripture above, I realized “Lindsay, you need to give these burdens to the Lord” they are not for you to carry! Yes, pray, yes give, yes do as God leads, but don’t carry them around with you! “Carry them to Me” said the Lord “and trust I will take care of these also”.

I stepped aside from my day and I prayed, Lord, take these, they are not for me to carry, you will show me, what to do, when to do it, you are my Shepard. I am sorry I “tried to figure it out” AGAIN…

Ah, moment by moment, step by step, when I get overwhelmed I have to remember, He is with me, He will never leave me or forsake me!

I just have to remember, He is there and He will show me!

I figure I am not alone, share below in the comments section your experience in this area!




Jesus saves in more ways than one!

My testimony will be short, I lived without Jesus for 31 years, I knew OF HIM, I wouldn’t deny Him, I honestly didn’t know enough about Him to deny Him. But 5 years ago, I sat in the back of a church, I heard a sermon that answered a few of my lingering questions, I finally understood that I could be right with God, not because of anything I did or would ever do for that matter, but because of what Jesus did. I said a prayer not because that is what “saves us” from death, I said a prayer as a way of acknowledging to God what I believed about His son Jesus. My life has not been the same ever since, it is hard to explain, because it is all God, not me! He has delivered me from self hatred among MANY OTHER lies that made me want to end my life, I could go on and on, but I won’t, I will leave it up to Jesus, He is the ONLY One who can save, heal and deliver and He will, if you let Him!

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Easter Sunday 5 years ago I sat in the back of Buckhead Church, by myself, as I heard Andy Stanley depict the story of the Bible. He talked about the 66 books by 40 different authors, how it is a collection of ancient manuscripts, which is the reason it seems so hard to read like a book!

I don’t remember exactly what Andy said 5 years ago, but I do remember thinking, “OH, I never really understood that Jesus was real. I never thought of Him as a real person in history, I kind of thought of Him as a fairy tail character, like Santa Clause or the Easter Bunny”

I had the opportunity to visit Buckhead Church again this Easter. I heard Andy talk about how none of Jesus’ nearest and dearest followers (His best friends) who actually saw the miracles Jesus performed ever really thought Jesus would resurrect from the dead once they saw Him die on the cross.

To hear more on this go to: http://www.buckheadchurch.org/messages and click on Easter Message!

But that is the whole point! That is what makes Jesus more than a prophet, a teacher, one even sent by God. The fact that He rose from the dead, He took on our sin (all of us) and He died with it and then He rose again, FROM THE DEAD. That is why we celebrate Easter, the day that Mary Magdalene came to Jesus’ tomb to prepare His body in a more respectful way; she found the tomb empty and wondered what happened.

Sometimes I screw up the gospel. I want to “explain” to people why I have this sudden adoration for a man who lived 2,000 years ago, who isn’t physically here!

For me, it is hard to put into words, how acknowledging my belief that Jesus Christ was sent by God to save me from eternal death, by taking my sins upon His body on the cross and then my acknowledgment of that gift, by me receiving that gift, by me saying, yes, I will accept this gift of salvation (salvation= rescue – saving – deliverance – redemption – escape) puts me in right standing with God for one, and allows me into His Kingdom (which is heaven) for two.

I think it is hard for me to put into words, because it is so unbelievably easy, yet it seems hard.

but Jesus saves us from ourselves!

He took our sins on the cross; He died with our sins and He rose again defeating death itself, therefore defeating sin, for any and all who choose to receive this gift from Jesus!

I am just going to be honest, people, humans, we are broken and we say stupid things, we say you have to do this and that, that and this, NO, it’s all about Jesus and Jesus was for ALL people! If you get to know Jesus, you will be surprised, don’t listen to people, and don’t listen to me. Read the accounts of Jesus’ life in the Bible, in the books Matthew, Mark, Luke and John and decide for yourself what you think of Jesus!

I pray today, that no matter our issues (as humans we have them, Christian or not), no matter our differences, no matter our politics, no matter our belief on marriage, no matter our economic status, our race, our current religion, no matter our denomination, let’s just get Jesus right! Believe that He is our personal Lord and Savior, that we receive His blood to cover our sins, past, present and future and that we seek to KNOW Him better in the coming weeks, months and years.

I love you! I pray for you! May God bless you with His undeniable presence!

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