I never really thought that putting down the pencil and letting God write my story would be so hard yet so beautiful at the very same time. I knew what I meant when I named my blog, I knew it meant releasing control of my life, just like it says at the top, under the heading, a moment by moment surrender to the One who created it all! Moment by moment, meaning at each moment surrendering to what I believe God wants even if it was not exactly what I want, or what I would do! My favorite verse in the Bible is “Trust in the Lord with ALL of your heart, lean not on your own understanding, but in ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” Surrendering and trusting that even if it doesn’t make sense, it is God and He created the world, so I would rather be in His will, than my own.
Putting my pencil, my story, my future in His hands, trusting ONLY HE can write the best selling story of my life. It’s never a best seller without pain but the beautiful part is a best seller usually always ends up with a heartwarming ending and I am confident that my God, He works ALL things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I know I LOVE Him more than anything and am called by name, for His purpose.
He will work these things as well for my good and His glory.
God is God, when I sit and really dwell in that; I see how real He is. I see that He is good, I am beyond thankful for His guidance even if it hurts, and it has hurt lately. I am beyond grateful that He came to set the captives free and I am one of them, I am beyond grateful that He has plans to prosper me, not to harm me, to give me hope and a future, that He is Peace, He gives wisdom freely without measure and that He will work things out in us for a purpose, a purpose to share those stories of freedom with others and help set them free from the yoke of bondage. He is a Redeemer, He is a Rock, He is Hope, He is worthy of our trust and He is my Perfect Father, He teaches, He preaches, He loves and He adores.
My heart is strengthened by the pain of the past two events in my life, He is strong in our weakness and it is kind of amazing! I feel this right now, I feel that He is holding me and that I am stronger than I was before, because I KNOW who holds me through it all, I know who knows my heart, I know who knows my pain and I know who tells me that He is proud of me. That is my Father in Heaven. He truly is before ALL things and in Him all things hold together and I am glad He is writing my story, because He writes the best stories.
I thought I trusted God, I thought I had that down, I know quite prideful of me, but just being honest. God knows what we need to take us to the next level of REALLY trusting Him. It all started with traveling half way across the world without much guarantee of anything, it was one of those things that I felt God tell me to do, He opened a way, more than one and it was obvious with the counsel of many wise people that this was from God. Yes there was a cute guy who had peeked my interest there, but God made me give that part back to Him, I didn’t really know what was going to happen with this cute guy, and he would tell you he didn’t know either. I had a few break downs as I prepared for the trip and ended up writing to several girlfriends this just 7 or so days before I left out of desperation
special ladies….. I would love to ask for your prayers around this coming week! As you may know a week from tomorrow (November 15th) I am heading out on an adventure with God, as much as sometimes I think this is about Cory, I know it is about God.. I thought to myself tonight, am I crazy, flying half way across the world to visit a guy I have met 3 times? As I started to pray, God reminded me that He is sending me on this trip and I know that is true because I didn’t actually manipulate one piece of this plan… So I can surly rest in that, I don’t want to get ahead of God in this, I want to walk faithfully and TRUST the One who created it ALL.. I would be honored if you could help me to pray with that in mind, that I rest in God, that I enjoy the journey, that I am excited by the adventure (as traveling the world is a dream of mine that I NEVER thought would come true, I thought it was for other people, never little me) but God puts those dreams in us, so here we go… Please pray that the details come together, favor for seats on the plane (I am flying standby and have many flights to GET ON), comfy seat if possible, safe and FUN travel, divine appointments, clarity, revelation, direction, GOD’S WILL, whatever God leads you to pray… Thank you so much for traveling this little journey with me, I know you are mighty women of God and I can’t even express how blessed I feel to have this many to write this message too… God has truly blessed me by crossing our paths, I am beyond grateful….
Love you!!! linz
When I look back, God answered every one of those prayers. Why do I doubt Him? Why do I doubt Him when plans don’t go the way I had in my head? Why do I even come up with things in my head? To be honest parts of the trip went WAY better than I could have ever hoped or imagined (Ephes. 3:20) and well other parts, like my travel there, my grandfather’s passing and my trip being 4 days shorter than planned, staying two days in Bangkok by myself, one day in Japan because of flight arrangements, that all didn’t go as “planned” so why do I plan? Why do I say I trust God, but then don’t really in every aspect of my life. I am not being hard on myself; I am being honest with myself. It’s time for me to pray that God help me to REALLY trust Him, that He give me grace and mercy and be compassionate on His little girl, but teach her how to TRUST in His goodness, His love for me, His plans for me.
I am sure I am not alone in this growing pain, this struggle, this normal part of walking with Jesus Christ, this part of the journey, I am sure I am not alone. Just know you are not alone either! I want to learn all God has for me to learn, I want to do all God has for me to do and I want to receive all the blessings God has for me to receive, and as my favorite preacher says, it really is a journey!
God’s healing LOVE, it sounds so cliche, but is it? Love is one of those words that gets thrown around A LOT, I personally say it a lot, I don’t think twice to throw it out there, especially if the “feeling” is there, like I LOVE payday candy bars, or my heated seats in my car, or the sunshine. I love the ocean, my friends, my family… But what does LOVE really mean?
1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. passion or desire.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?
Now that I read the definition, do I really consider a pay day candy bar this important? I mean sometimes, I do like them, but probably not THIS much! The one thing that is amazing and pretty clear and straight forward in the Bible is that God (our Father in Heaven) LOVES US. I know I know we have all heard this, not new information Lindsay!
I have heard that LOVE is a choice, makes sense to me (I can choose to LOVE payday candy bars if I want- you may choose to love a snickers candy bar?) but we do have a choice, right?
So we can CHOOSE to believe that God the Father, our perfect Father in Heaven LOVES us AND we can to CHOOSE to receive His love, or we can choose to know that scripture that Tim Tebow paints on his face during football games, have it memorized, even tell others about it, but still hold our hand out to God and not really receive His love.
I know it sounds impractical, but honestly my heart has been so healed by receiving God’s love for me, not for the world, but for me. . It was a process to believe and receive the fact that the Creator of the universe, LOVED ME, after ALL I had done, not only does He love me (AND YOU), but in a tender way, a profound way. He feels a warm personal attachment and deep affection for me as His beloved child, I am His sweetheart. In Zechariah 2:8, God refers to us as the apple of His eye. (that’s God, the One who created the entire universe) that can be a little hard to wrap your brain around.
I read a few years ago in the Bible that God IS Love. Have you ever sat and really thought about that, I hadn’t the first 35 years of my life, but this summer I started reading this book Captivating and it talked a lot about how a women is made and how she requires and desires love, I believe a man is the same (but I can only speak from a women’s perspective) that our Creator designed us to be LOVED, because He Himself is LOVE, He gives us a choice to choose whether we will 1. Love Him and 2. Let Him Love us.
That’s all I have…. I think it’s important to sit in and think on.. Ask God why He loves you and listen to what comes to your heart/head, write it down, you will blush!