Oct
23

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Joy, Peace and mini Meltdowns

2 things you can’t fake are Joy and Peace

“Joy looks above and not ahead, Joy is a deep seated assurance that He is in control and admission we are not”, said by my dear friend Sarah. I personally hate when I lose my Joy because it takes my Peace right along with it. Thinking for a time that I AM IN CONTROL, which causes major stress, fear and worry, that “IT” whatever the “it” is depends on ME!!!!

I use to FEAR my suffering; truly, I was waiting for the other shoe to drop in just about every situation. I was trying to CONTROL with everything I had, for protection, because of fear, it is an ugly cycle. It still happens, it actually happened yesterday!  I do seem to be quicker these days, to re focus and remember who is in control, who I can depend on, who wants me to depend on Him.

Being very honest with you I am currently walking through two of my biggest fears in this very season of life, I have had my control, protection, fear cycle meltdowns a lot more lately than I care to admit. BUT I was reminded this morning that God really does know the END from the BEGINNING… and He is teaching me to let go, trust Him, moment by moment and when I grip to things a little too tightly He gently reminds me, He has got “THIS”! Well in my case, “He has got those

Good Part:  The Bible says 365 times in one form or fashion “Do NOT Fear”.. I really try to take this literally, the Bible is God’s Word, from God, the God who created the universe, He doesn’t say do not fear, except in that situation, He says, DO NOT FEAR. (period)

I believe Joy and Peace are true gifts from God, I believe Joy and Peace are Jesus Himself, in the form of God’s Holy Spirit that dwells within us…

Let’s discuss Peace!

I believe Jesus is Peace because of what the Bible records:

1.       In the book of Isaiah it is said that “For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace. {Is 9:6}

2.       In the book of John, Jesus says “Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful”

{John 14:27}. When Jesus said, Peace I leave with you, He was referring to the Holy Spirit of God who dwells within us, who is God who is Jesus!

Therefore, invite Jesus not only into your life, but also into each and every situation! I invited Jesus into my life a while back, but just yesterday I was living, thinking and reacting to a situation like Jesus was nowhere to be found. Like He had no idea, like it was all up to me and I was a mess to say the least.

When I finally humbled myself and prayed, asked God to help me, HE DID. It was that simple, did the situation change, no! The circumstance I was so upset about, no, to be honest, it didn’t change one bit, but my heart did, I had turned back towards my Peace, back towards my Lord and Savior, my Jesus.

That verse in scripture that talks about the Peace that surpasses all understanding was always something I would pray for all those around me who were in a season of suffering, but now that I face my own valley, my own season of suffering, my own very fear, I feel and have felt “that” very peace that truly does NOT make sense. The circumstance doesn’t change, but something inside of me does!

If I think about it, it actually seems unreal to me. I know it is NOT of me, I know how I usually react to some of the very situations going on in my life right now and this peace, this is not me, it is something in me, it is Jesus, the Holy Spirit of God. I struggled at first wanting to sit in my fear, my sadness, my potential despair, I still do sometimes, like doing that was going to change the circumstance or something!

I lived without much peace or joy most of my life, I basically wondered why me in every trial and tribulation that came my way.. But no more. If it’s truly up to me to allow Jesus to be JOY and Peace in and through me, then I will, even if I slip up from time to time.

He promises He will walk with us; He will NOT leave us or forsake us! {Is. 43:2, Psalm 23:4, Hebrews 13:5}

Whether you believe in Jesus or not you will endure suffering on THIS earth, but with Jesus you will have PEACE.

Joy (Himself) Jesus helps us to endure the trail. BUT you have to receive the Joy, don’t try to muster it up, it’s Jesus just simply humble yourself and turn back towards Him, your Peace and your Joy!

Thoughts?

Oct
17

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Grasshoppers

The Bible says, behold God. Behold God; I passed by it in my reading, not thinking much of it. Then I was praying and asking God what I should write about, I felt Him tell me write on Behold. I am thinking, how I am going to write an entire blog on Behold. I don’t even know what it means.

So of course I looked it up in the Merriam-Webster

Behold: to perceive through sight or apprehension (to comprehend), to gaze upon.

I thought how do I perceive or begin to comprehend God?

I want too, I have at times, but I wasn’t “feeling” it, ya know…..

I read on down a little bit in Isaiah 40 and was kind of shocked at what I found…. I noted some of the compelling thoughts from the prophet Isaiah on the magnificence of God; I asked a friend who is very gifted seeing the big picture of the situation or person in the Bible to tell me more about Isaiah and his story. He said he lived during the reign of 4 kings including Hezekiah the King of Judah. During his reign the King of Assyria came up against God’s people and proudly said that he would defeat them like they did every other nation. Hezekiah and Isaiah humbled themselves and God sent the Angel of the Lord and struck down thousands of the soldiers that came up against God’s people. God’s people did nothing. Isaiah prophesied that God would do this great work! Also, Isaiah prophesied often about Jesus coming much later!

Read below what Isaiah said about God, read slowly, and really think on each one, sometimes I have to stop and remember who God really is! (All Scripture in BOLD comes from Isaiah 40)

Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand?

Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance?

13 Who can fathom the Spirit of the Lord, or instruct the Lord as his counselor?

14 Whom did the Lord consult to enlighten him, and who taught him the right way?

Who was it that taught him knowledge, or showed him the path of understanding?

18 With whom, then, will you compare God?

21 Do you not know? Have you not heard? Has it not been told you from the beginning? Have you not understood since the earth was founded?

22 He sits enthroned above the circle of the earth, and its people are like grasshoppers. He stretches out the heavens like a canopy, and spreads them out like a tent to live in.

23 He brings princes to naught and reduces the rulers of this world to nothing.

25 “To whom will you compare me? Or who is my equal?” says the Holy One.

26 Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one and calls forth each of them by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing.

28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

When I read that, slowly, out loud, I start to begin to understand what the Bible means by Behold, gaze upon with awe and wonder. It gives me a place to start when life is crazy and I remember what is instructed in the Bible, Be still and KNOW that GOD IS GOD.

If He really did create everything, is there anything more important? Is there anything better to seek, read, learn about and gaze upon?

Oh ps. I loved how Isaiah called us grasshoppers; there is no other reason for the title except it made me laugh!

Sep
25

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The word unforgivenss is not in the dictionary

I think that is weird, why wouldn’t it be in the dictionary? When you look up the word unforgivess in the Merriam Webster is says “there is no official word for unforgiveness” which I just found strange, because I think most of us well meaning, loving, lovable, kind people walk around with unforgivness in our heart all the time and it just eats at our  soul without us really even knowing.

I discovered this first when I had unforgivness in my heart since childhood about someone close to me that hurt me (not meaning too) but did and very deeply.  Truly it had affected my life in every way I can think of, from physical illness, to emotional illness, leading me almost to cause harm to myself.

It wasn’t what happened that made me so (for lack of a better term) “ill”, it was the unforgiveness I carried around for the next 25 years that caused the illness of my body and my emotions. It was a lack of understanding that people make mistakes, well meaning, loving people, just make mistakes in life. This person’s intent was not to harm me, this person actually loves me very much, but I couldn’t see that, because the unforgivness had blinded me with bitterness and resentment that I could not see past. The truth is that person, never knew, and still probably doesn’t know how hurt I was, because “it” the situation had nothing to do with me, even though it affected me in ways I can’t even explain on this little blog entry.

Once I understood how Jesus came to earth, to show us the character of God, then to take on the sins (or the mistakes) of the world (the world, meaning me, because I am one of us in this world and so are you) Jesus came to die for me (and you) for my mistakes (and your mistakes) and the mistakes of those who hurt both, me and you!

Once I let myself see my mistakes, they actually ran through my head like an old time movie playing in the screen of my eyes.  It was horrific, I have to be honest. I think I wanted to throw up, I know tears (and probably snot) where streaming down my face, as I saw all the ways I made mistakes, the ways I accidentally hurt people, they ways I even knowingly hurt people out of my own anger and pain. I suddenly understood the sacrifice that Jesus made by hanging on that cross until His death, He died so I could be forgiven of all my mistakes (past, present and future). The next thing that popped into my head was, Lindsay, Jesus also died for the mistakes of that person who hurt you so deeply. It’s time to forgive them!

It is too long to continue this story, but there is more! The journey of forgiveness in my life has freed ME, I didn’t say THEM, I said ME from such pain, sorrow, guilt and gripping fear. I could write a book on this, because it changed my whole life once I was able to see that Jesus died for me, for my “mistakes” little and BIG, He also died for the mistakes of those who hurt me and once I understood that and forgave those people, my life changed in a dramatic way!

I hope you will think about this, ask God, He will answer, ask Him who you need to forgive! Then even though it doesn’t “feel” fair to forgive for what they did to you, think about what our mistakes did to Jesus! Feelings are not always true, do as God asks and forgive as you have been forgiven. I promise, you will be FREE if you do!

I wrote a blog post a few months ago with some help on the actual process of forgiving see here!