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Hope, Hope & Hope

“Enjoy! Rest! Allow yourself to hope- not expect- but definitely hope!!! Hope expresses desires but leaves all outcomes surrendered to His control! Expectations demand certain outcomes stifling hope. Hope my friend hope! You are in a great GOD place!!!! It’s all so good”

The above was from my friend Sarah Ott Deyton. She just sends you texts like this, it’s like having your very own Beth Moore on hand! And YES I realize I am blessed in all my friendships. My friend Sarah introduced me to one of her best friends here in LA, Katherine Wolf from Hope Heals (which I have spoke about before). I am starting to see a trend here, a theme you might call it.

Lindsay, you are allowed to HOPE.

You don’t have to live in fear anymore.

You don’t have to wonder when the other shoe will drop, you don’t have to fear your next suffering!

A) because fearing it won’t prevent it
B) I have good things for you Lindsay, you don’t have to just always be happy for everyone else.

As I write this I am hearing, “Lindsay don’t get ahead of yourself, what if things do fall apart, you shouldn’t be so confident that God has good things ahead for you”

LIAR LIAR LIAR. I want to say!

“Lindsay what about all the people suffering in the world, you should not be happy, you should be careful to talk about the blessings you have right now, because other people are hurting”

“I know” I say back to the voice in my head, “I know you are right, I shouldn’t be happy it’s just safer to expect the worst and then be delighted with the outcome if it is not bad.”


When I look at that thought on paper, it makes me sad, it makes me sad that I think like that, it’s just a sad way to live. It’s twisted and it’s a lie.

See this HOPE thing is really starting to sink in. I mean God is quietly putting it all around me. I never really knew what HOPE was, but I am thinking it might mean to look up, to lift my face to a good God and know that He is for me no matter what, that it is OK to believe that I don’t have to always be happy for everyone else. But that I can be happy for the beauty in the moment He has given me, for the blessings of my day and THAT is ok. That is good, that is healthy.

My friend Jason talks about the problem of hope being deferred and how the Bible says in Proverbs 13:12 that
“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life” English Standard Version

I don’t want my heart to be sick. I want my heart to Hope in Hope Himself. I want my heart to know that my Jesus is for me and is with me and yes has good things for me. I want to remember that yes there is nothing better than Him, but that I can hope and believe that I will see the goodness of God in the land of the living. Who am I kidding I already have, I have seen Him turn ashes to beauty time and time again in my life with one thing after another.

Is everything perfect? no, will everything ever be perfect, no!

But He is God, and I am not. I want to believe my Jesus is who He says He is and I want to believe He is good and all good and perfect gifts come from Him. No matter what my doubt and fear want to say! Even if the gifts are for a season.

I want HOPE to arise in my soul, my circumstances, my life, my future. I want HOPE to arise in yours as well!

I don’t know where you are currently, but my prayer is that the goodness of God will manifest in your life, whether it is His presence so thick that you can hardly contain it, or if it is that peace that really does not make sense, or maybe it is that desire you have had all your life that is currently being fulfilled. I pray that He will speak to you about this HOPE thing that I think He might be speaking to me!

I truly love you all so much and am thankful to be on this journey with you!

You are not alone!

Love Always,

Oh and THIS SONG to help you worship our Creator!




Control is rooted in Fear

Trying to figure things out, is rooted in control and control is rooted in fear.

I am learning this, because after God told me not to figure out my job situation, another completely different situation came into my life. And well fear presented itself and I just went with it. I went with fear. That was the wrong decision. (we all make wrong decisions)

But see fear is NEVER from God, and in this situation He once again asked me to lay it down, not to try to figure it out either, but to trust Him in this new situation.

Why is it so hard?

“God, what am I supposed to do?” I asked.

Seems I was spending a lot of time on “trying to figure things out” because now I was thinking, what am I going to do if I am not spending so much time try to figure everything out?

At church on Sunday, I was reminded of a scripture during worship (which I always believe is God speaking to me through His Living Word)

New American Standard Bible
This is the day which the LORD has made; Let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Psalm 118:24

Peace came over me as I knew this was what He was telling me.

JUST rejoice in THIS day. For it is the day I (I, God, who created the entire universe) made.

Don’t worry yourself about the future, you don’t control it Lindsay. You just don’t sweet one.

You stay close to me and let me show you! That is the JOY of being in relationship with Me.

Release control Lindsay!

You keep praying to get rid of fear in your life and you have come so far, but see trying to figure out tomorrow, or the future, it really is a form of control and control is rooted in fear.


“Again Lord” I thought.

But then I sensed Him saying “It’s ok beautiful girl, I am telling you this to free you not to condemn you!”

God our Father wants our hearts, He wants our trust and He really wants a real relationship with us, with YOU! Yes, YOU, He created YOU and He loves YOU even if you don’t love yourself.

He has every hair on your head numbered, He knows us, He knows our sin, He knows our struggle, He knows our thoughts, good and bad, see we can’t hide from Him and that is the last thing He wants, He wants to help us, not judge us or condemn us! That’s why He gave us Jesus, so we could be pardoned from our sin and His judgement. He wants to love on us! He wants to envelop us in His love, He wants to bring peace into our lives, our minds, our hearts, our souls and He does that through Jesus Christ! It is the Holy Spirit that comes to live inside of us once we receive Jesus, and Holy Spirit is the living Spirit of God who comes to reside in all believers of Jesus. Holy Spirit is said in the Bible to be our counselor and our comforter, I mean who doesn’t need counseling and comforting, I do every day, sometimes each moment of each day.

Just ask Him today to show you His love for you!

Just like any other relationship, it’s personal and it is intentional!

Just be with Him
Click here for some worship music that will lift your sweet self closer to Him




Fruit Flies and LIES

The truth is we have an enemy and he is the Father of LIES!

His only real power is to lie, to put thoughts in our minds that absolutely feel like our own.

You can unfortunately believe lies for decades and they can lead to destruction in your own life and in the lives of those around you.

It sounds crazy, but it is very very true.

I am not saying this to scare you, no no, the Lord is very very clear that there is NOTHING to fear, not even the devil (the enemy of our soul).

He is a defeated foe, the devil and he has no power or authority over those who are IN CHRIST.

And you don’t have to be all cleaned up and without sin to be IN CHRIST (that’s a lie)…. We need Christ because we are messed up and He is the one who comes to take on our sin, so we can be reconciled to God our Father.

You simply have to humble yourself and come to Christ to receive His gift of salvation. You have to realize that you need His divine help.

(Public Service Announcement: NO ONE IS PERFECT)

Except for Jesus! (because He was/is God in the flesh)

It can be tough to understand, it seems kind of weird and before I knew Christ as my Lord and Savior I remember thinking, “ok, why are people still talking about this jewish carpenter from 2,000 years ago. I believe that a few generations could convince a few more generations that this “Jesus fable” was true, but how on earth is it still being talked about today, if there is not something supernaturally real about it. It’s a good question to ponder, if you still don’t believe.

I mean even logically that doesn’t make sense.

But the truth of the Gospel, the GOOD NEWS is that everyone no matter their sin, can be saved and brought into a new life with Jesus and in Him we have authority over the enemy and his LIES that set out to destroy us.

A few weeks ago some lies of the past started to present themselves, seeing if I would maybe listen in again. It’s not always easy to recognize because they have a familiarity to them. I had believed lies about myself for over 20 years and they made me hate myself deeply. Come to find out, they were just simple lies that felt really really real.

Lies can be very powerful, that is why the Truth is so so important.

I didn’t realize the lies that were trying to slip back in recently, but suddenly found myself back in fear, back in not trusting God’s goodness, back in not trusting that God is for me.

Those thoughts, bolded above, are always a sign that the enemy might be trying to feed you a lie of CRAP, once again.

Maybe the lie is that your sin is fun (sometimes sin was fun), but it is, be assured, set out to destroy you.
Maybe the lie is that what YOU have done is too horrible to be redeemed, but that IS a lie.

It’s our responsibility to TAKE EVERY THOUGHT CAPTIVE as God says in His Word in 2 Corinthians 10:5 English Standard Version (ESV)

“5 We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ”

So right now, I have this fruit fly infestation at my house. These little boogers are annoying but what I realized is that they are tiny compared to me, they don’t have a chance to win against me, I am like big human girl, so as they bug me I squish’em. And they don’t have a chance, but then another one comes flying around that I have to squish also, so I have to be ready.

When I got home last night I realized that these little fruit flies are like the enemy and his lies. He is annoying and if we let him, he will drive us a little mad (or he will drive us straight off the cliff if we accept them as truth), but we actually have the power and authority to squish his lies as they present themselves. ya know, like little fruit flies.

If you struggle in this area of believing LIES, check out this teaching by one of my favorite Bible teaches

Click Here Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer

Want to accept Jesus into your life? See here or email me and we can talk!

Love Always,


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