Freedom from all the YUCK!

Love leads to freedom!

God is love and where the Spirit of the Lord (God) is, there is freedom.

The Bible says it like this “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom”  in 2 Corthin. 3:17 (NIV)

The NASB version uses the word liberty! “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.” 2 Corthin. 3:17 (NASB)

Que Chris Tomlin

We know where the Spirit of the Lord is
Where the Spirit of the Lord is
There is liberty
We know living in your freedom
living in your freedom, see your glory
We know where the Spirit of the Lord is
Where the Spirit of the Lord is
There is liberty

“Listen Here to Song”

The truth is, I thought I wrote a bunch on love and it was time to move to another subject I am beyond passionate about which is FREEDOM in CHRIST. But it all ended up coming back to Love, Himself!

Freedom = Getting free of all the yuck in our souls, the lies, the fear, the guilt, the shame, the unforgivness, the bitterness, the rejection, the abandonment, the misplaced identity, all of it, all of the yucky stuff will just hold you down, it will confuse you and it will keep you chained for life and the sad part is, you will never know the difference.

If you don’t know the truth, how will you know the lie?

It’s not exactly easy, you may need 17 boxes of Kleenex and a determination to tell the enemy to go back to hell where he and his lies came from in the first place and possibly on a daily basis. As scripture refers to it in 2 Corthin10:5 where it says “We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ because you are a daughter or son of the LIVING GOD and you were born for FREEDOM. (Lindsay’s Version)

Galatians 5:1 Jesus came to set YOU free!

John 8:32 says “YOU shall know the truth and the truth will set YOU free.”

Jesus is the Word, the Truth and the Life and He came to bring the Word, the Truth and Life to set YOU free! (John 14:5)

Let me say that again, JESUS

The answer is still JUST JESUS and the answer will always be just Jesus, but sometimes we need a little help unwrapping the grave clothes (as Mark Batterson refers to it) because we are no longer dead in our sins, but we are ALIVE in JESUS CHRIST! The thing is we can carry some of those old grave clothes around with us! Grave Clothes like fear, guilt, shame, rejection, unworthiness and a host of others. Grave Clothes that will not necessarily send us to hell, but will hinder us and our walk if don’t “throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us” as said in Hebrews 12:1

But the enemy doesn’t want you to know there is any other way but to slug around with your grave clothes hanging off you, like toilette paper from the bathroom hanging onto your shoe.

Example of Grave Clothes…..

I recently thought to myself  “Why am I 37 and single when I have a desire to be married, what is wrong with me?” I wondered. It must be complicated, I thought. There must be something extremely wrong with me. WHAT IS IT GOD? I begged and begged to know. He was kind to show me the unworthiness lie which I believed for a longgggggg time (too long to even think about) see here for more on the lie of unworthiness, but I knew there was more. Lord what is it?

He kept showing me this rejection theme, eekkkk, it was ugly to see, it made me want to turn my head like in a scary movie as I realized I rejected the desire to love for fear of not being loved in return. Ohhhhh myyyyy wordddddd, it’s so simple but so strangely profound. How could a seemingly strong, Godly, competent women be hiding like this?

Well I was!

And still might from time to time if I don’t take every thought captive that tries to sneak into my head!

I will find freedom if I have to KICK and SCREAM as the enemy whispers in my ear “you are selfish Lindsay, always thinking about yourself.”  But good thing I know the enemy is a liar, and an evil accuser of the brethren (or sisterian in my case) so I just look up at Jesus, step on the enemies head and walk on!

As Christine Caine recently said, “We have a bunch of Christians running around wanting to change the world but not wanting to change themselves”


As you LOVE yourself! Interesting!

Jesus came to set us free, so if you are in bondage, it is time to stop what you are doing, get down on your knees and ask your PERFECT Heavenly Father for the wisdom and sit at His feet until He shows you what He wants to show you. I don’t have a clue what it is for you! Rejection like me? Fear of abandonment? Unworthiness? Unforgivness from 20 years ago? Misplaced Identity? It could be any of these or a host of others.

It takes time sometimes, that is why the Bible says to: “not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect” Romans 12:2 NASB)

In all things we need to “seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33

So pray and ask the Lord if there is anything holding you back from the freedom He died to bring you?

Click Here to see the prayers on this blog for releasing things like fear, rejection, unforgivness and bitterness.

Also see this article on the health benefit to forgiving and releasing bitterness from the Mayo Clinic!

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The More on LOVE!

Ok, I know this isn’t what you thought I was going to say and to be honest I didn’t know what I was going to say until I sat down with the Lord last night…….

I did know God wanted me to step out of my fear “of acting weird” brought on partly by my deep insecurity…. I knew because scripture is clear ”For God hath {has} not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7 KJV

So that was clear, but I didn’t know exactly where we were going (aka the very name of my blog comes rushing back to hit me upside the head) Put the Pencil Down Lindsay, don’t assume what I am doing – I can just hear God saying….

Sometimes (actually often) I get these big ideas on where God may be headed, I am not positive He switches it up a bit to see if I will follow Him, but it would be interesting to see if I would listen and follow. Or if I would just mosey on in the direction I THOUGHT He was taking me and miss the very point of what He might be trying to teach me. Am I alone here?

I knew God wanted me to date, I just didn’t know it was Him that He wanted me to date.

This isn’t actually new. I use to have Jesus dates all the time when I lived in Atlanta and that is actually where I experienced so much healing of my broken wounded soul. He taught me so much about what love really was, what receiving love really looked like. It healed MANY deep deep things within me.

He is actually Love! 1 John 4:8 HA who better to teach us?

I KNOW I KNOW! All of you singles are like “Lindsay PLEASE”

{I can hear you!}

But I am not trying to be super holy here, I am being super honest!

And just to show you that I am not crazy or alone in this, read this amazing story….CLICK HERE you can just hit the back arrow when you are done! Cuz we aren’t done!


Your back, OK, let’s continue..

When I first got to LA I wasn’t all the way prepared for the transition and I gripped firmly onto my life and was scared to let go.

I then had a dear mentor tell me that my extreme struggle and fear may have come from the fact that I wasn’t really prepared for what a move like this could be like spiritually speaking. She said “Lindsay I know you had a wonderful, supportive community in Atlanta and I think you found a lot of your security in them. When you moved out here you thought your security was in your community so you ran around this city for months looking for that community and you forgot that your security was ALWAYS in God and as soon as you put Him first again your community and everything else will flow from there”

OH MY WORD. Girlfriend was right on! I knew it the moment she said it! What she said hit me like a ton of bricks.

In a good way!

As God, my mentor and I have been talking more and more about dating outside of Him, He reminded me that He is perfect love and I need to come to Him and He will show me so that I can surely recognize it when that time comes.

Here is the thing, I just don’t bare my soul across the internet because it’s fun, writing actually heals my soul and my  prayer is that reading it actually heals yours.

Let’s go on this journey together, becoming students of Love Himself!!! So much more to talk about in regards to love. It will be fun! I have no doubt!




Was it really good old fashion unworthiness?

Was it that simple?

All these years?

I wanted to stand up on the airplane and yell “the DEVIL is a LIAR” when the reality popped into my head.

I love my life and I actually had to get really real with the Almighty in Heaven and ask myself, “do I really want to get married or am I ok and content being single?”

The answer after much deep reflection, prayer and tears was YES, YES I do. Even though I know it is not rainbows and puppy dogs 24-7 the answer is still YES, I do desire marriage. But not in a desperate way, I have been desperate for “love” before and that never ends up well. This time, it started with a question, a question that I had to settle in myself, reach into the deep of deep and ask myself. Do I REALLY desire marriage?

The answer was YES.

The question then remained, what keeps holding me back from entering in? To even dating let’s say?

Ever sense I met Jesus 6 1/2 years ago I was “the girl” that often said “I trust Jesus SO much that I believe He can bring my husband to my front door, I mean He created the universe.”

Which I do believe He could, I mean He is God, but in every other area of faith He asks us to “step out of the boat,” why did I think in this instance I could sit on my couch and wait for my dude to show up?

The truth is, the Lord recently revealed to me that I indeed may have unintentionally used that “strong faith” as a cover up, to protect myself.

I have passed up many opportunities in my life to “enter in” and it was out of FEAR.  But then I had to walk through many of my fears (and it was not a cake walk to say the least).  I thought I had overcome, I thought I was ready and open to dating.

But then I found myself being really weird in front of guys.

If they were cute (in my eyes) I was weird, if I didn’t find them attractive, I was weird. It was all very weird.

I needed and wanted to get to the bottom of this.

So, I prayed, I cried, I asked the One who created me, “Lord, what is it, dig it out even if it hurts, I know there is something off here”

As I sat on the plane over a month ago, my sanctuary in the sky I realized, wait.

I feel completely unworthy of a good marriage, or a husband I am attracted too.


Could this whole mess be good (I say that with sarcasm) old fashion unworthiness?


It’s that simple?

The Bible says “there is nothing new under the sun” Ecclesiastes 1:9

When I looked up the word worthy in the dictionary it said “having good enough qualities to be considered important”


WHO died for ME!

The Spirit of the Living, God lives in me, because of Jesus.

How dare the liar, the devil, the Father of lies, lie to me all these years.

God is working on me and digging out some things that are holding me back from just being Lindsay and not thinking so hard about the rest. I plan to share this journey with you, slightly awkward, but that is usually how I blog (almost too honest for comfort)

More to come on Lindsay “stepping over her fears and in “it” with Jesus” It will for sure be a journey! But this time, I know it is good and I have to trust God with ALL of my heart.

One step at a time! It’s all anyone of us can really do! Holding His hand walking with Him step by step! Putting our ear so close to Him, keeping our eyes on Jesus (The Word made flesh), in the Word of God and leaving all else out of it.

God is our Creator, the rest, the rest of this world was created by Him. He is the final authority in all things! We get the choice to believe that or not.

As I was preparing to post this a friend suggested I share some of the ways I have had to fight this unworthiness in my life, although the fight is still raging, the best “advice” I can provide is to first understand who you are in Christ. Your new identity in Him as a believer. I would start here!

Not sure what I mean by believer, read here!

See you next time as we journey together through the LIES that hold us down!

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