Be with Him, He will show you!

You know me; I like to be honest with my struggle, His grace and my expectant heart!

So here goes:

I recently went to the Storyline Conference where the underlying theme was “finding your subplot in God’s story.”  I went with no real expectations, but I found myself on the first day, during our lunch break staring at the ocean in sheer panic!

“Lord, I thought YOU were going to perform YOUR purpose for my life (in and through me), now you want me to figure it out, but but…….”

“Lord, I JUST learned to surrender my plans, my will to YOU and now I find myself at a conference trying to “find my purpose”

I came home from the conference slightly disillusioned. Not because it wasn’t a great conference, more because it challenged my beliefs a tad, ran up against what I thought I had figured out about God!

2 things I started to realize:

1.       I will never “figure Him (God of the Universe) out”.  He wants me to BE STILL and KNOW THAT HE IS GOD, He wants me (and you) to be present with Him, seek His face, and get to know Him. He is standing right beside you. Stop, turn your head, realize He is there; I sometimes even grab His hand. He is our Shepherd, and He walks along side of us, step by step! The Bible says that He will never leave us or forsake us, YOU OR ME. Never, so we can count on Him, He will always be there.

2.       I was worried about figuring out what I could do for God, instead of seeking to KNOW God. Don’t we all want to be known, truly known, isn’t that what love is, to be fully known by another? Jesus (who is God) wants to be known by His creation (that’s you and I).

I admit I struggle, I want to HELP GOD, and typically it is with a pure heart, it is because I am so grateful for what He has done in my life that I want to do all I can for Him. I don’t believe this is wrong but I do believe it needs to be in the right order.

Scripture reads: “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well”.

All these things, which seems to include what to do for God and for others. The Bible says in the book of Jeremiah “Pray that the LORD your God will tell us where we should go and what we should do”

In the New Testament, the Bible says:

“I (Jesus) am the vine; you (humans) are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing

Apart from Him we can do nothing; those are His words not mine!

I know God wants us to co-labor with Him to do as He commands in the Bible, no question. I also know that He knit each one of us together in our mother’s womb. He gifted us differently, His timing is perfect and He will lead us if we choose to TRUST Him. If we choose follow Him, to listen to Him, to be still and know He really is the One who created the entire Universe, therefore, He is worthy of our TRUST.

I think it’s hard, I think it is easier to plan, to do, to try to figure out, than it is to rest and trust that He will accomplish His will in and through us if we stay close, listen well and {Walk Forward} with Him. TRUSTING in an invisible but ever present God (of the Universe). A God who really wants a real relationship with us! For more on the idea of personal relationship with God click here..

God knows the needs of our hurting world and He calls us to co-labor, but we are FIRST CALLED to seek His kingdom moment by moment, to seek His face and then He will lead us where He wants us to go and what He wants us to do, step by step.




Walk Forward

I wrote a blog about 6 months ago called “Joy in Suffering”!  In the book of James, chapter 1 in the Bible it begins with “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds”.

Let’s face it; we live in a fallen, broken world and we needed a Savior 2,000 years ago as much as we need that same Savior every single day!

We need Him with us through it all, the good and the not so good.

As I recently walked through a very confusing time in my life, painful to say the least, I did everything in my power to hold tight onto Jesus in the mists of it all. I will be honest; I didn’t always do a good job. By God’s grace He put people around me that kept me close to His Truth! The Bible talks about our enemy some refer to him as satan or the devil, his only real power is deception. Basically he is a liar and the truth of the matter is he doesn’t let up with his lies during our dark times. I tend to think the lies alone can cause the dark times to seem even darker because you hear things like: “well that’s it, there is no hope, you will never be happy, you will be sad for the rest of your life” LIAR LIAR LIAR……. He is a liar, but when you are in the middle of the valley, it is hard to recognize the lie.

During that painful and confusing season the only thing I could hear God say to me was “Walk Forward” ahhhh I screamed in my car “WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?”

“REALLY GOD that is all you have for me? In the mist of my hurt and utter confusion I was hoping you would have something a little more concrete to tell me than -Walk Forward”.

The one thing I knew through it all was “I have to hold on tight to the TRUTH of GOD, I KNOW God is for me, I know God has good things, I can’t see straight at the moment, but I KNOW God will work this for good, I just know that is His nature.”


As the clouds cleared and the sun started to shine on new and exciting opportunities in my life! I was taken back!

These opportunities connected to dreams that had been hidden away for many many years. I honestly had forgotten about them, BUT God didn’t, He was waiting for me for the past 35 years to STOP trying to make everything happen. He wanted to show me He was God. He wanted me to put down the pencil; He wasn’t going to pry it out of my hands.

It was like darkness became light in a matter of weeks, He started presenting opportunities leading in the way of my dream. Putting pieces together that I could have never done myself, I was, well I still am in a bit of shock and AWE of how real God is and HOW much He really does care about each one of us. The Bible says He knows every hair on our head! Now that is AMAZING.

Praise YOU Jesus, because you ARE in control! Although I do think you wait for us to give you control, total control and sometimes that comes out of brokenness. Now I kind of understand a few more things than I use too. I understand that YOU are my JOY, YOU were with me in the dark valley and you led me to the light. All along YOU had these amazing doors open and You were just patiently waiting for me, but I had to keep walking {forward} when I really didn’t feel like it!

WALK FORWARD, He is leading, push past the feelings, the lies that hold you down, PRESS ON, He has good plans. We may never understand the brokenness of our world, of our lives, but we can understand the goodness of our God. WALK FORWARD with Him, trusting Him, trusting His goodness, even if it seems dark, He is leading you to the light where you will rejoice, praise and stand in amazement all for His Glory.




Praying for your future “helpmate”

I honestly have never really prayed much for my husband. I always kind of thought God already knew what I wanted plus I didn’t really know how, I know that sounds weird.

I guess what I am saying is that I felt a little weird telling God what I wanted in a mate?

I had a dear mentor of mine challenge me to pray in great detail for my husband, as he reminded me praying for my husband is not selfish, God says in His word “it is not good for man (or women) to be alone” and God also says “we have not because we ask not”, my mentor told me to pray for my future husband as if I were painting a picture of our life together. I am a visual person so I started to imagine, what would I want, what do I truly desire in a mate? It was really revealing, it helped me to pray in more detail about our life together, my future husband’s character, and our marriage even.

Then as I was reading a book called  “The Circle Maker” by Mark Batterson– fantastic read by the way, he talked about WHY God wants us to pray (I mean He knows us better than we know ourselves, so doesn’t He KNOW what I desire) the book went on to explain how maybe it is God wanting to know if WE know what we desire, do we know what we want? I was so taken back by this comment in the book; I honestly had not ever thought of it like that, Batterson went on to reference Mark 10:51 in the Bible where Jesus encounters a blind man, “What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked him. The blind man said, “Rabbi, I want to see.” “Go” said Jesus, “Your faith has healed you” the Bible goes on to say “Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus along the road.”

Isn’t that interesting, Jesus asked the blind man what he wanted, even though He knew.

It really challenged me to think beyond what I see. What is “out there” as some of us think, it reminded me that God really is God, He created the Universe (not just the earth, the entire UNIVERSE) and He really can do more than we can ask or imagine. (Ephes. 3:20) He writes great stories; He writes great love stories, stories of redemption and He does it all for His glory!

I want to encourage all of you man or women to pray intentionally for your spouse if that be your hearts desire, pray like you are painting a picture, and pray about the everyday things you desire in a marriage.

For me, I love to read and quality time is my love language, I heard Beth Moore say one time that her husband sits on the edge of the bathtub and reads to her as she styles her hair and puts on her make-up in the morning,  I thought, YES, I would LOVE that. I want a husband who enjoys spending time with me.  I know that seems simple, but is it? What if we prayed and wrote down the desires of our heart for a future mate and just what if the God of the universe blessed us with that, wouldn’t that be a great story????

God is faithful and I believe He will!

Leave a comment, tell us what you desire in your future “helpmate”

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